Just really depressed

I love my husband but I'm at end wits with him. I can't continue to sit here and let him treat me any kind of way. He has clearly emotionally moved on and got caught up in feelings with a girl he cheated on me with while separated last year. I have told him to stop talking to her but he told me they have a bond together and he couldn't just drop it. Idk wtf that means but for me have to emotionally share my husband I'm not comfortable with it. I have to move on and live my life. This is really hard for me as i love him dearly but i can not continue to do this. Its emotionally tearing me apart. I just wanna be free from this situation. I wanna experience real love, i need more then what i been given I DESERVE MORE. I'M 33 WEEKS PREGNANT AND THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH MY HUSBAND HAS LET ME DOWN. I'LL NEVER THINK I WOULD BE HERE BUT I'M HERE AND ITS NOT A GOOD FEELING.