The hubs and I have been trying for just over a year now, and still not pregnant. Yes I'm aware there are others that have been trying longer, and I pray that your miracles come soon. But it seems to me that not many of the doctors I have seen really give a damn about my infertility.

I was diagnosed with PCOS at the age of 19 and was told the longer I wait the harder it will be to get pregnant. Well I'll be 33 next Tuesday. I never tried getting pregnant before cause I was never in the right relationship. I stopped taking bcp March of 2015 to start trying, we got married September 2015.

So I saw an endocrinologist this January, and even though his professional profile online states he helps with pcos, he told me in person he doesn't. So he refers me to a gyn, who does blood work and orders a transvaginal ultrasound. He tells me that there is no indication of pcos that all my blood works looks normal, except I have elevated LH. And the ultrasound showed prior ovulation. Then why do i have hirsutism and insulin resistance? So now what? He tells me to go to a fertility clinic.

I went to the regular dr last month cause I was on cycle day 43 before my period started (that exact day right before my appt. of course). Mind you that when I go to my doctors office, I never see MY doctor, I always see a different resident. He wants me to get a hsg test and the hubs to get a sperm analysis. Well hubs can't make an appointment until late June since he is a new patient with them (insurance change).

So I started bleeding last week on and off for 5 days. I would bleed some, then it would stop for a day, I would bleed some then it would stop for a day. I called the diagnostic place to set up hsg test since they do it CD 7-10. Oh no they have no appointments when the tech is there, then their tech is gone the rest of the week. They tell me to call another imaging place, well they can't do it until 5 days after my period ends... I don't know when it will end!! It never really started!! Fuck!! I was so frustrated that I had a nervous breakdown in the car while the hubs and I left school.

I have friends who cheat on their men and get pregnant. I have friends who are having their 4th, 5th, 6th kid... I have friends that have multiple kids that all were conceived on accident by one night stands or flings. But I can't get pregnant with the man I love and married.

FUCK!! I'm done!

Sorry for the long rant of frustration. But I'm not pregnant so I busted open a bottle of wine while I cooked dinner, lol. We're going to Vegas for July 4th, and I'm having margaritas dammit. Hawaii for our anniversary in September and I'll have a drink in a coconut.

And please, I'm just frustrated and not saying things to put others down.