CYCLE DAY 53???

Ashley
So I am feeling very frustrated with my body this cycle and I just need to vent. 
I have PCOS and insulin resistance which causes me to not ovulate normally which in turn screws up my cycle usually. The past few cycles I have been pretty regular but this cycle in all over the maps!! I am on cycle day 53..... SOOOO frustrating 😡  I don't feel pregnant at all like to the point I won't even test cause it just seems like a waste of $10-$15. I have been extremely emotional/angry at the drop of a dime but I'm planning a wedding SOOOO I'm sure you ladies who are married understand 😂 i do feel quite tired usually around 4-5 everyday but again with my PCOS I feel like I sometimes need more sleep then others. Oh and my CM has been all over the place from EWCM to watery back to EWCM to creamy and then super dry then back to EWCM??? Also I've been spotting but it only seems to be during/after sex!! I have spotted once or twice near the 25-30 day mark but it went away within a few hours both times. 
I guess I'm just feeling frustrated because after like 3+ years or trying and NEVER getting a positive test I can pretty much guarantee I am not pregnant but AF just won't show her ugly face 😭😭😭 
PCOS I kind of hate you.