I feel like this journey has been super hard. I've never wanted anything more in my life than to be a mother. My husband and I have been TTC for 17 almost 18 months now. Throughout our journey we've discovered that I have PCOS and my hubby had a varicocele in November that has since turned into Azoospermia. They've done CT and an ultrasound. Not a blockage as far as they can tell. So he might be sterile is the guess right now. He just wanted to be the best father ever, better than his father was...someone to carry on the family name. Now it looks like we can choose a donor or adopt. I have always dreamed of adopting a baby after I had one of my own. But after 6 months I don't even think he's begun to process everything. He avoids the subject and our sex life has slowed immensely. And then right when we're getting things back on track my body decides to have the first period I've had in 3 freaking months, and it lasts for 3 and half freaking weeks.... I call my doctor and he says talk to the OBGYN I call her and she says they can't treat me with anything other than BC.!!!! I've never wanted to just sleep and ignore the world so much in my entire life. I've been depressed before but never like this before....