I'm just really down tonight. My husband and I have been ttc for almost 2 years and it's just been such an emotionally draining journey. My husband already has a son (he's now 6) from a previous relationship who we are actively involved with and have joint custody of. When he was still dating his ex, she stopped taking her birth control behind his back and got pregnant very fast. It's so heartbreaking knowing how easily she got pregnant and how she did it by being deceitful  because we are in a stable, loving relationship and we are actually ready for a child  and have been trying so hard and it's just not happening. When she got pregnant, he was just graduating high school and was no where near ready for a child. When we got together, I knew I wanted a child some day, but he was very hesitant and we put it off for a long time because of his fears of the way she deceitfully (I know he was technically asking for it by not using protection, but I still think her stopping birth control without his knowledge is deceitful). But we've been actively trying for two years now and it's just not happening. And I know I truly shouldn't compare, but it's so hard at times when all I want is a baby to call my own and I do so much for my stepson and love him like I would my own, but am constantly reminded that I'm childless (My stepson will correct people constantly out in public that assume I'm his bio mom and goes through the phases that I'm not a parent because I'm not his "real mom"). I want to know that feeling of bringing life into this world and raising a child that isn't ashamed of when someone calls me their mom. I'm sorry guys, I know this is a downer... I just needed to vent.