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I'm 19.

My brother stole my laptop from me because he decided looking up dirt bikes was more important then the exam I needed to study for and was calling me names, my mom took his side and told me to shut the fuck up because she needs her "beauty rest" and basically didn't give a f what he did to me and was calling me names as well. 

My boyfriend who is now my ex told me my profile picture on Facebook made me look like an ugly dead doll and wouldn't let me touch him and said I annoy him and he doesn't want to speak to me (he's been emotionally/psychically absuive for the past year, didn't even want me to work because he was so controlling)

My only family member who cared about me was my grandmother and she passed away a month ago. 

I had no motivation to go to school because of what my father was saying, or to finish getting my licence. 

I wanted to leave my house because of how my mom and brother bully me and my mom favours him, and I just felt very trapped and alone in my room, crying. 

What my ex said really hurt me and I felt ridiculously ugly. 

But after crying for a while, I realized: 

I won't let them win.

I broke up with my ex. I applied to every job I could possibly find AND I got my old job back (the goal is to work two jobs). I'm going to do whatever I can to make myself feel good, because I am pretty. I checked my email and I actually got an email back to model in a hair show after going to a casting call last week. He probably wouldn't let me do it if we were still dating. So I'm going to. 

I'm going to go to school tomorrow and do my big exam and move forward in my education and get my certification. I booked a driving test for a smaller location and I'm going to practice more with a friend. 

I'm going to try to find an apartment and move out. I won't stay in this emotionally abusive situation anymore. 

And I'm going to have my grandmother guiding me every step of the way. <3 

UPDATE: I've had more support and love in these comments than I've ever had from anyone, besides my grandmother. I was crying reading them all! Thank you all so much! You're all beautiful people! I wish you all the best of luck in life. XO!!!! Oh, and I passed my exam in school with a 93, and have 3 interviews lined up!! ❤️