Not really sure where to post this, just venting. This year and last have by far been the worst years of my life..I honestly could not see it being any worse. I lost my cousin in November then followed my grandmother in January, next my long time friend/family member with four legs in February..last month another pet who was also very dear to me like family. Shot, in cold blood and tonight my sisters dog whom I also love so much. Hit and run. Like she was nothing. All of this on top of miscarriage and on going abuse, betrayal and humiliation because I'm too stupid to leave and too scared I really am nothing. I really do not want to be here I just don't want to cause anyone any more pain. It's so hard not to give up. I've been bending too long and soon enough I just might break..