I'm new to this group

I've been very discouraged that I'm not conceiving. But recently my boyfriend has been a lot more emotional than usual. And the other day I had a bad kidney pain and I have never had kidney pain in my life. And a couple days before that I had heartburn.

Every month I find little things that could mean I'm pregnant. And every month when I get my period I sit in the shower and cry. It really sucks.

I stopped taking BC last February. And have been having unprotected sex since. AT LEAST 4 times a week, if not more.

So upsetting to see people accidentally get pregnant. Or to see people have an abortion when all I want is what you're getting rid of. (not shaming abortions whatsoever! Just very sensitive and bummed about this)

Please. Advice. Words of encouragement. Anything. I just want to be able to look at this photo and remind myself I have the most precious gift inside of my body and I will do everything in the world to protect that. But nope. Nothing.