9 weeks!

Hi, everybody. I'm new here, as I'm sure many others are as well. I am 23 yo and I am pregnant with my second baby. I am due Christmas eve, but will need a c-section so will be scheduled some time before that. My first child I had at 23weeks and on my 18 the birthday. She passed away when she was 4.5 months old because of an overdose of anesthesia from a careless doctor. It will be 6 years in September since I had her. I am so nervous! I have had surgery on my uterous to fix the problem that caused her to be early and I am a nurse now with 3 nurse sisters but the thought of losing another baby makes it hard for me to ever want to do anything in fear of hurting this one. I know that's not how it works and we are not all that fragile but its so scary! Anyone else experience something similar? I'm so anxious to make it to December with a healthy baby! What a blessing this is!