Mind is determined that I am fat

sunshine
Please no one judge me but I'm sick and tired of FAT.. I wouldn't say anyone my size is fat or over weight massively but no matter what I do, i have in my head that I am FAT FAT FAT, it's ruining my life... I've had a few boys that when I have declined them and declined to go on dates with them have turned around and said you are fat anyway... I get scared to meet new people, I self concious on what to wear .. All I see my self is as is fat, I go to the gym 4 times a week and eat quite well but I'm just getting to the point where I think me beinG fat is going to ruin everything