I hate myself, I literally hate every single thing about myself. All of my friends are skinny and their husbands are all over them all the time. I'm overweight and my husband rarely ever touches me. We aren't unhappy emotionally or physically, but we are defiantly sexually. I'm unhappy with myself and as much as I say I'm going to try to change it, I won't. I wish I had the motivation to change myself but I don't. I don't even like to look in the mirror, I literally avoid looking at myself. I can sit here and vent but it won't change a damn thing. My mom brings up my weight constantly, she tells me how I need to lose weight and if I don't make a change I'll be just like everyone else in our family. It depresses me. I think I'm becoming unattractive to my husband as well. We never have sex, he says he is too tired all the time but I feel like it's because of my appearance. I am disgusting, I disgust myself. Sorry for the vent.