Self conscious

Heather
Hey ladies. 
I really hate talking about this and not many people in my life know this, very few select friends even. I hate my vagina, it's so ugly. 
I guess they call it butterfly vagina, but on top of it my lips are long even. 
I have talked about surgery on fixing it. It does cause some irritation with some underwear styles and clothes, and can be somewhat visible in certain type of bathing suits. But surgery scares me and my husband rally could care less. It just bothers me and I think if I did get surgery I would feel more confident in the bed room and acually do things like dress up ect. Then there is the otherwise where it can take feeling away and such. 
I don't think I've always been like this either it's just changed over time and possibly from certain types of molestation or sitting positions as a kid.
Any advice That is positive is welcome.