I'm a 33 year old first time mum. I'm due 15th January and I have my first appointment with the midwife on Thursday.

I'm terrified of becoming a mum.

My boyfriend (32) and I are not ready to be parents. We haven't been together long.

Neither of us want a baby, but we don't want to have a termination either. Our baby has a heart, it's not just a collection of cells.

It's such a difficult decision to make.

I'm definitely leaning towards keeping it, however my boyfriend thinks that a termination would be horrific but probably the sensible thing to do given our situation.

He says ultimately it's my decision, and he will be there for me 100%.

Anyone else is a similar situation?