My father committed suicide last night. I'm a mess. I can't believe he's gone. He was always a keep to himself kinda guy, not big on talking about feelings or personal matters. But none of us had any idea he was depressed and thinking about suicide.. My mom and dad divorced when I was two and I never got the chance to be close to my dad until a few years ago, but in those couple years that I did have with him I saw what an amazing man he was. I see so much of him in myself. I can't believe he's gone. I know it's not good for my baby girl (I'm 35w) for me to be this upset but it's not like I can just shut off my emotions.. I can't stop crying. I love him so much, I'm devastated.