Trying again second guessing!

Nickey • Married, mother of two amazing kids and two angels!

Had an ectopic pregnancy and had surgery March 28, this year.

Husband said we could try again after 3 months like the doctor suggested.

We have my daughter, 6, and our son, 5. He has older kids, 25, 24, and 18, (not really kids anymore) from his first marriage. My daughter is from my first also. His oldest, daughter has 3 kids, so we're grandparents also!

Its been almost 2 months now and I'm starting to second guess trying again. I started taking birth control to make sure we didn't accidentally hey pregnant while waiting three months, and am still taking it.

I don't know if I'm just scared about it happening again cuz the doctor said once you have a tubal, your risk increase that is also why she wanted us to wait three months to be safe.

Had anyone else felt like they changed their mind about ttc again?

Is it just nerves or actual mind change? Like baby fever finally broke!

I feel like I might hurt my husband if I really did change my mind cuz it took so long for him to want to try again after our son and he told me I had gotten him excited about having a baby! I don't want to let him down! I think I'm a little scared to try to talk with him about it!