Feeling crap😢

Been in bed for the last 2 days not feeling so good and just lien here has giving me a lot of time to think about a lot of things. I can't stop crying I wish I had someone to speak to but I don't. I have lost 3 baby's one just recently 15/04/16 and a cant stop thinking about wanting a baby so badly and it's just not happening I think I should just give up on all my dreams of being a mum😢😢I'm so upset and angry at myself why is this happening to me it's all me and my partner has ever wanted. Has anyone else ever lost 3 or more without haven any children inbetween losses and did you go in to have a healthy pregnancy wouldn't mind hearing about them (sorry don't no what bit to post)