Although I do not feel the jealousy that many women describe after a loss, don't get me wrong I am envious but there is no anger. I now see the pregnancy announcements that some people throw out there at only a few weeks and think "oh dear, I hope nothing goes wrong after you announced so early." I feel jaded, like that first positive pregnancy test and all the happy giddy emotions I had will never happen again. I am always going to think "what if something goes wrong".... I obviously don't say it to these women who are so obliviously happy. I just wish I could feel that again and know that I never will.