Almost 2 months since I lost you, even though your sister is here with me. I'm over what could of been. By now I would of know your gender felt you kick spoken to you and for you to hear how much I love you. Your feet were not meant to walk the earth among your family but to wait and watch over us until the day we meet. Everyday is meant to get better but everyday it destroys me more and more. I'm sorry I couldn't hold you I'm sorry I never got the chance to welcome you to the world. I believe i did this to you as I was putting myself under to much stress I could never forgive myself.