Miscarriage last month Af due today and still a no show

Andrea • Married for going on 5 years, have 2 boys ages 9 and 5 and trying for our last, praying it's a girl this time lol
Having a stressful morning... miscarried last month and Af is due today still no sign or symptom of her except the sides of my boobs hurt. I don't want to test again because I'm scared it will say negative or it will say positive and I'll lose it again. Ugh... just needed a little vent since I won't talk to my husband about it. I told him I wouldn't even tell him I was pregnant this time until I saw a doctor before hand. Thanks for listening. ♡♡