Monday is the day I'm supposed to start my period and I'm praying after two years I don't have one! I cried the whole time she was giving birth because I want that! I know it's just a show and it's all fake but I have been in a room during labor and delivery. I want that pain I want to scream and cry but most of all I want the moment of pure bliss hiking sonething I created the one thing I could make perfectly no matter what! I want that experience! 

Sorry for the sob fest but this is my one true dream!