This is a long story ladies. About 2 years ago i met the love of my life. He was my first (we'll call him John)and after about a 2 months of dating i found out I was pregnant. John had went into Dad mode and he was concerned about everything. Later on in the week i had began to miscarry. John brushed it off and we never really talked about. We dated a little over a year before breaking up. He had some problems that he needed to work out. We kept in contact on and off until recently when we decided to give this another try because we were without a doubt still very much in love with each other. The problem is while we were apart i was seeing someone and i got pregnant. I had another miscarriage while i was in the hospital being treated my boyfriend (Alex) was out cheating on me. Alex broke up with me while i was in the hospital miscarrying his chid and ran off with the woman he cheated on me with. John was there for me since Alex wasn't he took care of me and made sure i was ok. After awhile we decided to give it another shot. It's just been hard because i can't stop thinking about the fact that I've lost 2 children already and i keep having dreams of this beautiful baby girl, and i have a family with John and i'm scared it will never happen. Idk if i'm dreaming of my future or if i'm dreaming of what would've been. I want to talk to John about but i don't want to annoy him. I don't know what to do.