Hello ladies,

My husband and I have been, more or less, TTC for the past few years, now, and GOSH, it's been a horrible journey! My father passed in August of 2014, and the night before thanksgiving, I wasn't feeling right, and I had finally realized it. I took two tests that night, and one as soon as I woke up, and they were all positive. I was over the moon and rushed to put together one of my dream holiday announcements. We thought our prayers were finally answered, until about a week and a half later, when I slipped on black ice and, long story short, went to the hospital , and over the next few days, not only received the news that we already felt of a miscarriage, but also that we lost three little angels to heaven.

After ALOT of evaluations and tests, the biggest part of it was due to our blood types. (My husband is O+, and I'm O-), and I'm also irregular. It's pretty much impossible to chart my cycles, and opks pretty much NEVER come back with any results. Throw in a recent diagnosis of blood cancer, and now you know what my journey has been.

So, lately, I've been feeling awful. Not like myself at all. Sore in the nipples and areolas, and my hips feel like I'm constantly in a midevil torture device. I took an opk and hpt about two weeks ago, with both coming back negative. At this point, I don't want to be disappointed again, but I also don't want to risk losing another baby. It was so mortifying for me, and I still haven't gotten over it.

Any words of encouragement or advice would be SO APPRECIATED!