Any other Mommies have anxiety or depression?

I unfortunately have both, but anxiety is the ruler. I lay in bed sick allllll Day and I feel like I'm alone. Reason being is, the father and I aren't together and never have been. It would be slightly reassuring if he would even ask me how I'm doing, but he doesn't. He says he's always busy but he's Forever talking to his friends and makes time to go out. (My bestfriend is dating his best friend, so I know for a fact. And I've seen it myself) I asked him why he's like this and he just says he's busy. In the beginning of this pregnancy all I did was cry and consider abortion bcuhs my mind is running ramped, I'm alone, and feel worthless. But I didn't do it. I considered self harm, didn't do it. It's not the babies fault. I don't want to feel sad cuhs the baby senses that. Any other Mommies in my boat or a similar one.?

I just thought I could find a friend in the man I'm having a child with... but when you make grown up decisions, consequences follow.