To be pregnant or not to be pregnant?

Jailene
I was a week and a half late if my period. Not too long ago I made love with my boyfriend and well we were scared to see if we would be parents. Finally I got my period....and idk for me at least I'm happy because I didn't think we were ready, especially me, and I didn't want our baby to grow up like that; however I'm sad because I started thinking about our baby that we made out of love together and a tiny bit of me wishes I was pregnant. Idk what to do or think, can someone help? Please