hyperemesis gravidarum

I don't usually make public posts and in general I keep to myself. I want to share some of my story about hyperemesis gravidarum in the hopes that this can help even just one person. Please private message for any resources or helpful tips if you suffer from this also. Hyperemesis is an extreame version of morning sickness. Mine lasts the full length of my pregnancies from 3 weeks all the way till delivery. Most will only have it up to 20 weeks. I lost my first baby in the second trimester due to undiagnosed Hyperemesis, everyone kept telling me it was normal to be so sick, it wasnt. my second I had to tell my doctor what I had because they just shrugged it off as nothing and even had to tell the pharmacist what the condition was.... hospital couldn't treat me... I couldn't keep even a sip of water down in a day. Everyday I'd be up all night getting sick too nauseous to sleep. Some days I couldn't leave the bathroom floor. Other days I'd be in the hospital throwing up blood and get sent home because they had tried everything to help but nothing could stop my body from throwing up more, so it was just a wait to see if baby would make it. My whole pregnancy I was hardly able to keep any kind of anything down food,water, medication... my second pregnancy I did all this while I worked full time. I got treated terribly for this. " why can't you control yourself and stop getting sick, i was told how ridiucliuous I was for non stop getting sick when I had no control over it. I worked to quilify for mat leave to care for my baby.... I was so excited to have my babies. My thrid I had no option but to not work I was even sicker than the last two pregnancies but still had to take care of my 2 year old with no friends or family in the same province. Most days I didn't know if I'd make it. My husband didn't know if I'd make it and was terrified for me. The amount of money we had to come up with to pay for all these medications that I was told would help me ... but didn't. It was so bad that I was given 4 prescription by the hospital and told to fill them all out and try different combinations of them to see if they would help.... I did not feel comfortable doing that. I stuck to taking diclectin which did help but not much. Zofran did nothing,everything I tried did nothing. Magnesium didn't work and so on :( fast forward I ended up in the hospital throwing up blood ( i was in and out of the hospital and would only go in if i felt like i was going to die) they kept me till I had my baby. I have two really healthy boys which is a miracle to me. I'm terrified of pregnancy and so is my husband :(

All I know is I'm lucky to be here. I do have some very helpful tips but I'd prefer to give a private message if you do need help and are in the same shoes as I was. I wrote this because when I needed help I couldn't find anyone that could relate or help. 9 months of throwing up every 10-20 minutes is extremely hard and only someone who has gone through it can relate. I'd love to pass on some resources and information that helped me and made a world of a difference when I had no one. If you did not suffer from this, thank you for taking the time to read it and being informed could save a woman you know, their life or her baby as most people do not know they have this condition until it gets severe and doctors don't diagnose it and assume it's just morning sickness. Assuming it's just morning sickness can result in extreamly upsetting circumstances. It used to be the #1 cause of death in pregnancy but since the invention of the iv it is very very rare. The iv saved my life. I was still starving to death on the brink of the edge but the iv kept me here. So I am thankful for that.