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does anyone have problems ? i can give you advice ❤️

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I haven't really opened up in a long time. But my past is pretty rough. When I was 4 i was molested by a 9 year old transgender. I didn't know if I could blame him/her (I don't know what gender he is now) Because he was raped as a kid and was doing way he learned. My dad was always cheating on my mom. abusing her and my sister's and I. I am the youngest. And my sisters also abused me idk if it was because they were high all the time or if it was because that's what they've learned growing up. I started getting bullied in the 5th grade I was 234 lbs and by the time I got into the 6th grade I had a eating disorder because I hated myself because of constantly getting picked on at home and at school. I started self-harm in the 6th grade didn't stop til 10th grade (currently about to be in 12th) My first love turned out gay . My second love cheated on me multiple times . My third current love is verbally abusive and has bad anger issues but this is my longest relationship and I've gotten quite the backbone since I've Taken karate and dance classes. I have more confidence. I'm currently 160 lbs I'm 17 now. Still trying to lose weight. My dad had a heart attack 5 years ago and stopped abusing me We've gotten quite close and now he has lung cancer . And is getting worse every single day. I currently have a slective eating disorder. I workout every day. I don't look in the mirror anymore. I haven't tried committing suicide since 2/11/15 I haven't self-harmed since 3/23/15 instead of failing all my classes this year I have all A's and B's and my GPA is currently a 3.4 I got into IB dance and Chorus 4 The highest programs there is in my school. And I'm trying to keep up my hard work . But every time I turn around I lost a friend or family member from suicide or car accidents and deal with life on top of it all. And to think I wanna be a English teacher and have kids now. So much has happened and I can't believe I got passed it.

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Honestly, my only issue today was deciding on whether or not to stay in my sweats, makeup free and top knot or get dressed, makeup, the whole shabang. My plans were to tidy the house and then go food shopping. Exciting, right? 😂

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