Desperatly need someone to open up too..I feel so lost and lonely. So out of place. I have a fiance who for the first 4 years of our relationship would always break up w/me and would treat me horrible..now he's changed in to the best man, tending to my every need and being there for me. BUT i feel as though my love for him has sadly diminished because of the fact that i have my eyes on a Soldier who's deployed overseas. And my bestfriend and I have grown distant because she liked to spend too much money and do drugs , and im not in to all that anymore. I just don't know what to do.