As a first time mommy to a newborn (I have a step son who I've taken care of everyday since he was one) I'm feeling extremely overwhelmed and emotional. I feel like all I do is feed baby. I'm EBF. With it being summer I feel awful for my now 9 year old step son because I literally spend all my day nursing burping and trying to keep little man happy. I love my baby and am so thankful he's healthy and I have him but at almost 3 weeks I thought I'd be more adjusted by now. He's up every 2hrs like clockwork all night long and dad works 12hr days. I don't blame him for being exhausted when he comes home. I tried having him bottle fed with breastmilk once a night but I just woke up in so much pain from not feeding baby. So I feel like if I have to get up to pump I might as well just feed him. Everyone tells me it gets better but then you read about people who have 3mo olds that are still up every 2hrs at night. I never thought this would all be so hard on me. Not to mention its lonely! I wish I had some people around to help but everyone I know works during the day. Anyone else feel like this, or am I just crazy?