Today I am reminded that if we concived when we originally planed I would have a 3 year old but instead I am still struggling to figure out if I will ever have my little joy. My husband has infertility issues and I am going to see a doctor for a second opinion about myself. I want a baby so bad it hurts...but today I feel like giving up. I just hurt so bad today. Sometimes I can't take it and my husband doesn't understand how I feel.