I'm such a ugly, stupid person

Ugh I just need to get this off my chest! (I won't be responding to any comments so you don't have to reply). I'm not good at anything.  I've been working at McDonalds since my teen years and now I'm in my mid 20s still there. I have no interests. My body won't concieve a child after trying for years. I've picked up 40lbs since December. I know my husband will never admit it but I've gotten uglier with all this nasty fat. I have no friends . My therapist is useless. My life is useless. Everyday I wake up with nothing to look forward to. I hate myself for becoming this dumbfounded individual. I can't hope a proper intellectual conversation. I'm just so over this