Breaks up are the worst

Me and my boyfriend of 1 year and 8 months broke up just a few seconds ago. He was my first EVERYTHING !!!! I know I shouldn't be crying over something I know was obviously going to happen sooner than later. But today I just feel like it's done foreal. I mean we have broken up a few times before but today just feels like it's finally here. Maybe love doesn't always last forever.