What the fuck

Miranda
I don't know where to post this, I just neeed to vent. I recently lost my mother, unexpectedly & we still don't know what happened. I'm confused, lost, broken, depressed (I already was & this triggers me worse), I'm also a mess, I'm mad, & just about every emotion, I don't understand. I feel guilty, Bc I didn't get to say good bye or text her the night before to say goodnight. I'm 17 & moved out maybe a month ago because of some stuff happening at home that's confusing,  it I just seen her the day before she passed away and I don't get it, and I'm so so lost andim a mess. My period is so heavy has been for 4 days and I just want it to end; does anyone have any advice on how to cope, make my period end or anything???