A year (freshman year) ago I used to have really bad problems with depression and anxiety and started taking pills for it but got off them because it wasn't doing me any good. But my shophmore year (this year) I began lifting weights and I had been told before that working out will help with depression and hell yes it did. I was in a class where I could work out as much as I pleased and I really fell in love with it, I loved how I looked and my new personality knowing that depression was finally none of my concern anymore. But 2 weeks before school got out I busted up my knee and couldn't work out my legs anymore which really bummed me out. Now that school is out and I have no weights to lift and even if I have them I couldn't use them because of my knee, my depression is starting to take over again. I don't know what to do, I have no motivation to do anything that I love anymore. I was hoping that starting my first job would help but I'm not allowed to start for another few days and I realize that it will only take up a few hours of my day, leaving too much room in the day for me to think. See during school I got up at god awful hours of the morning and drug myself to school and worked in my woodshop class (which I love too) and then worked out for a little bit and went to other classes then came home did homework and relaxed which left me only a few hours to talk with my boyfriend while he's not at work and just chill out. But now that I have all this extra time on my hands you'd think I'd be happy and put it all to good use but of course not. Bottom line is I need to work out, that's what was making me happy, that's what gave me the motivation to go through with the rest of my day and now I can't do it. I don't know what to do. 

I'm not asking for help or advice but whatever you comment is fine with me... You're probably thinking I'm lazy or something for not just getting up and doing something and honestly l'm just as disappointed with myself as some of you probably are too