Breaking point!!!!!!

Sylvia • Pregnant with baby number 3 🤰🏾💋❤️👶🏼 Evacuation start March 31 ☺️
where is my bfp ....The only things other then everything being just right is that I wish I was pregnant .....and I knew that I was ....im kind of in my feelings about it ......I'm just laying n bed just thinking ......why can't I just get a sign like the rest of the lady's .....everyone is pregnant and happy and more every time I see someone pregnant I really be happy for them then my feeling just get broken again.....this is the hardest thing to deal with its easy to say don't think bout it. But every where I go or look up sumone having a baby or pregnant.... Why can't it be me .....why cant I just get a damn + on a test .....I think god hate me .....he blessing everybody round me but me .....it hurt sooooo bad ......all I can do right now is cry it hurt so bad not getting my period and not a bfp is taking a toll on my heart .....I'm sorry lady's I just needed to vent .....my partner is at work and having a good day just don't want to mass up his day ....it would be nice to make him a damn I'm weeks late on AF and still no bfp ....