I don't know what to do! I have to be able to handle everything, and keep it all together. But I'm scared I won't be able to handle everything...

My Moms sick with a bad heart. And she is going to be starting chemo again. She already needs someone by her at all times. I always have to rub her back, legs, neck, head. Sometimes I can't even finish eating. I have to help her move, and turn over. Get her things...

I have to take care of the house, and my dad gets mad if I don't clean up. Such as dishes in the sink, or laundry left in the dryer. I also have to help my grandma, and take her where she needs to go. And Help her with certain things. And on top of everything I have a four year old.

Just the other day I wanted to scream. My daughter is in the bathroom. She needed help wiping her butt. She was upset cause she got poop all over her. At the same time my mom keeps yelling for me. I yell one one minute. She keeps on calling me. In the mix of it all my grandma also wanted me to take her to the bank.

It's like that everyday. Once the chemo starts I won't have any down time.

I don't know if I'll be able to handle everything. Keeping up with the house. (Can't be messy) helping my mom, helping my grandma, and taking. Are of my daughter. And hold it all together.

If I'm tired, and being lazy I just get bitched at. I should be cleaning or something. At the same time the vacuum noise bothers my mom, I did too much laundry to smell this soap bothers my mom. Cleaning chemicals also bother her. I don't know what to do.