From the time i got pregnant untill now this has been a horrible experience. My family is crazy, my so is a cheater. Im realy starting to feel like i wanna give up on my life so bad only thing that keeps me moving is my son . my mother has a control issue and she wants my son. Willing to do almost anything to take him .my so hates her and we argue about my family all the time. But all he does is sit on his phone alllllll dayyy and text or look at dogs. he breeds American bullys it brings in good money but he does that all day every day . i feel like a single parent thats has one night stand once a week. he only helps out with the baby a little when he feels like it . we don't have sex anymore like we use to and than the cheating. I try so hard to just let it go but its so hard to let it go . i feel so much hate towards him i wanna harm my self . as im typing this right now hes going is once a week lock door bath on his phone . i feel like im gonna flip so im in 3rd br that in the basement bc if i stay up there and knowing how that makes me feel i might flip. I dont have friends or anyone to talk to im only 19trying to do the right thing and be the best mother i can be . please i just ask that god makes it bettter for me one day . i can't take this anymore sorry for the rant