Crazy mom

I'm so frustrated. I cannot wait to save up enough money so I can leave this house. When I was 18, I bought a small dildo. My mom searched my room because she "had a feeling" something was up and found it in my drawers. She got so pissed off, hit me, and told me do I WANT "my pussy to get loose for my husband." I'm a virgin. Now, I'm 19 and she's pissed about me trying to buy a menstrual cup. She says they are gross and told me to stick to tampons and pads. I can't win with her. 😒