Regreting Tubal?

Hey guys

I really need a mommy's advice. I had my beautuful baby girl 3 months ago. I also have a 8 yr old girl I love them so much. My husband and i debated on having another baby for years after my 8 yr old. When she was 5 we had a miscarriage and then this past year got lucky with my new baby who is 3 months old. We decided that since i didnt have the easiest pregnancy that we were done having kids so since i was having a csection that i would get a tubal. Now that i have had it done i often feel really sad that i cant have another baby if i wanted to down the line. I never planned on having more than 2 but people i watch on youtube are having babies and i get so upset and i think jealous because i wont experience that excitement anymore. My husband says he still just wants our 2 girls only but i think sometimes he thinks about the tubal too. Guys i think its because im trying to really enjoy and cherish everyday with my 3 month old because i want ever have a 3 month old again. Am i crazy please be nice.