I'm fuming! Story goes.. My ex (father of my soon to be born baby) was a control freak. When we were together he'd have to know where I was, who I was with, what I was doing etc. Wouldn't let me cut/dye my hair. Wouldn't let me meet up with my friends and made me quit my job because I worked in a pub 'serving drunk men' as he put it. I was constantly accused of flirting with other men whilst working in the pub. He threatened that if I ever left him he'd have someone watching my every move and he'd end his life by driving into a wall. In the end I plucked up the courage to leave his arse!! By the time I left him I was already 7 weeks pregnant. From then on he's made my life a living hell. I've been struggling big time with really bad depression and anxiety. I've had to have the police involved. I've had to have my house flagged by the police. My midwife has had to safeguard and flag the hospital that I'll be attending when I give birth. He's constantly stalked me and harassed me even harassing and stalking my young sisters. Hanging around outside their schools at home time. I got to the point where I couldn't leave my house or stay in my house without breaking down. I had a threatened miscarriage too so that made it even more stressful for me. I constantly thought about abortion because I was terrified of what he would do once little one is here. I have constantly tried my damn hardest sorting this out with him but he's always thrown it back in my face and slandered me across social media branding me as a 'dirty scummy cheat who needs to be hit by a bus' he's put worse online about me too! All he's been interested in is alcohol and drugs! I've finally got my own solicitor who has told him via letter not to contact me until baby is here and even then it'll have to be done via third party. He let it lay low for a month! A MONTH!!! Now he's back putting things on Facebook classing me as a deadbeat when all he does is spend his money on alcohol and drugs. He doesn't give a sh*t about this little one!! Now all of a sudden because it suits him he's contacted one of my family members demanding to know about the baby. He now reckons he wants to sort it all out.. After all this time, after nearly 5 months of hell and 5 months of me trying to sort it out with him. He now decides he wants to go about it the way he wants to. I'm fed up of being walked over by this idiot. I'm fed up of feeling worthless. I'm fed up of trying to make a bloody effort with him when all he's done is make my life hell. All he's done is brought misery and crap to my life and caused me severe depression and anxiety. I've literally given up. All I'm interested in is safeguarding my baby when he/she is born. I've never said once that I'd stop him access all I've ever said to him is 'be clear from drugs and you can have visiting times' am I such a bad person to think and go about it this way? I thought that I've been going the right way about it but I sometimes feel nothing I do is good enough!😔 so so sorry for the long post, I just needed to get this off my chest as I have nobody to talk to! Apologies for any spelling mistakes in this I just can't be bothered to read it all back through😂