Need help. Depressed @ 36w

I'm 36w and 5 days. At 31 weeks I was admitted for preterm labor. They did a FFN which came back negative. The day after the two weeks I was having regular contractions again. I went back and they did another FFN which was negative. That puts me at 35W roughly. I went back again last week because of contractions and they did another FFN which came back negative. I really thought that one would be positive. I know baby will come when he wants to, but now I'm getting really anxious and nervous. I lay in bed all day trying to sleep because 1) I'm up all night and 2) because when I'm asleep I dream about him and hold him. Me and hubby have had sex twice and he's came in me twice but I'm not having as frequent contractions as I was. Baby is moving, but not as much in the day as he used to. I'm just starting to get concerned, and anxious because I really want to meet him and hold him. I had a dream last night where he smiled at me and I want to fall back asleep and have that dream again. I can't wait. I'm so nervous and anxious and impatient. My water hasn't broken, I haven't lost my mucus plug and I'll be 37 weeks in 2 days. I think God is trying to teach me patience, lol but I want him now. And I'm already 80% and 1.5 cm as of last week. I feel farther now. How do I get over this depression? How do I kick start labor when I have no energy to do anything from being sad all the time?