While I was walking through the grocery store today after work, all I could imagine and think about was having a tiny little baby sitting in the cart in front of me to play with and oogle at while I got what I needed.  I got so incredibly sad because I just want it so much and every mother I passed getting frustrated with her children I just wanted to tell them how blessed they are to have those children no matter how crazy they make them at times. I wanted to tell them how lucky they are to be having a moment like that rather than going on day by day wondering if something is wrong with her because she hasn't gotten pregnant yet, like I do. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I really don't know how those of you who have been trying for years keep going and stay positive. I really do envy you all because you are so incredibly strong! I know it can take up to a year for healthy couple to get pregnant and it's only been 7 months (8 next week of AF shows like imnprettybsure she will) but I just get more and more depressed with each month that it doesn't happen.  I really feel so defeated right now and completely betrayed by my body.