Change...

Sjonna
Im 25 weeks pregnant with my second girl shes due in oct. Come friday or saterday i am moving out of the house and leaving my s.o..... Iv been trying to hold on to this relationship and we were engauged to be married in may.....figures that didnt happen. He constantly tells me to leave and get out. Just recently i found a message to a girl he was talking to claiming that hes in a dead end relationship and dosent know if the baby is his. Funny that was the first i had heatd of that. None the less it kinda stung but okay..... Iv been begging for us to work things out but tonight i reached a point when i got home from work...and yes on his days off i still walk to and from work while he n the car stay parked. Lol...yea not funny...... Anyhow i came home from work and went to use the bathroom and he tripped on me for not answering the phone because i was wipping my butt. I seriously called him 1 min later.....he called at 5:37 i called bk at 5:38...... Then he started in again saying i was screwing someone blah blah blah.....hes recently started putting his hands on me as in choking me to the point of almost passing out. I firmly believe he is trying to get me to loose this baby. Im constantly stressed out or crying but tonight i started packing. He thinks these bags next to us are clothes to be washed lol.....no im moving out in a few days. Im so nervous and partially s cared because iv been with him the last 3 years so not being with him and not waking up to him or going to bed with him knowing that everything is about to change has me somewhat scared. I didnt really mind in a way before when he put his hands on me because that was better then him saying some of the stuff he said. I cant handle his mouth he makes me feel like not waking up but now being pregnant i dont want my daughter to grow up seeing him talk to or treat me the way he does because then she will think that its normal n okay....because i grew up watching and experiencing the same things.....ughhhh im scared gugs i know i need to be strong n step away from this situation that im in....part of me wants to stay but i know i have to leave im just afraid ill back out when it comes time to....any thoughts????