Honestly I am scared to even type this on here and not anonymously.  For many years I've always hated life, I believe since I was only 11 years old. Not very many know my story. Not even my family. I've tried multiple times to kill myself. Now I am in a relationship I have a wonderful son, but I still feel like I have no purpose in this world. I know it's selfish if I were to take my sons mother away. I try to distract myself from these thoughts. Has anyone ever felt this. If so what helps. Please don't be negative. I am trying everything possible. I have no one to talk to. My S/O thinks I am an idiot for thinking like that.