Am I the only one?

K
    I am a Christan who is planning on waiting until marriage, but being a 16 year old (well 16 next month) female, waiting seems hard. I completely understand why we are supposed to wait. You're supposed to share something special between you and your partner, but I still have curiosities/desires. This guy that I am talking to is not a virgin and he understands and respects my decision. 💕 Am I the only one who feels like this? I want to wait, but at the same time, I don't.