I just need to get this off my chest :(

Hannah
If you don't feel like reading a long, boring, sad complaints stop reading lol. I'm so freaking sick of my body. It does not know what it's doing. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder a year ago. I was then put on 20 mg of Prozac (antidepressant) about 8 months ago. While I have begun to feel better mentally, my body has gone to shit. In the last 8 months I've gained 50 pounds (!!!) and completely stopped having periods. I was always a fit girl and never had issues with my weight, until this past year. I've had to get all new clothes, and it's humiliating. I feel like I'm not even in my own body anymore. My diet and exercise have remained the same, so it's not like I started eating a bunch of crap, and I kickbox 4 days a week. I finally went to the doctor and he diagnosed me with polycystic ovarian syndrome, which explained the absent periods. He said the weight gain is most likely because of the Prozac. And so to find out whether it's making me gain weight (I've also been constantly tired---I sleep 8 hours a night and then take a 2 hour nap everyday, which is totally unlike me) my doctor put me on 40 mg of Prozac. In 3 weeks, if my side effects are worse, we'll know it's the Prozac effing me up and think of a different plan. But I am SO frustrated. I just want my body back. It's made my self esteem plummet. And I really don't want to gain even more weight in these 3 weeks. If I didn't have a broken brain none of this would have happened in the first place. I'm just done with my body. I just want it to do what it's supposed to do.