I feel sad/confused

Well today im 34 weeks prego, but i feel like my and my boyfriend are not really connecting. It hurts me because this is our second baby, but he has changed alot his the one who wanted a second baby. Then i also feel so stressed, i stopped working and i see him struggling with all the payments by himself. I guess we were not ready 😥 i feel useless at home when i could still work, i just didnt find another babysitter for my two year old. I don't think im having a babyshower either, i don't know what to do. I miss him & i miss us. On saturdays he goes out with his friends, and dosent even get home till like 6 am. He started to drink alot, and it is not like him. I feel like i have no one to talk too about all that i feel.  I just feel horrible everyday.