Scared and not excited

Regjinay
Is it weird it's my second child , and I'm not happy nor am I able to tell anyone . I'm 23 and I have a 3 yr old , even though I've graduated college and have my own house ... I'm still scared to tell my mom , I feel like I'm letting her down because I'm so Young. I haven't told any family members .. And I'm not excited like I was with my first child . I was so excited and happy to tell everyone . Right now I'm just nervous , and scared and not really happy ...