Vulnerable af

My boyfriend and I broke up a couple of weeks ago and I downloaded a couple of dating apps to try to get back out there.. But it's not going anywhere because I'm too scared to meet anyone. Because 
a) I gained back all the weight I lost (60 pounds) plus another 20..
b) I'm already paranoid, I grew up really sheltered
c) I've been on "dates" before where they're not satisfied with how I look and I'm pretty sure they think I don't look like I do in my pictures.
I can't help that I know how to work my angles 💁🏼
But anyway yeah I feel like I will always be single. And the only guys that want to take me out are the ones that take me to their house for "Netflix and chill". Even if I really push for going on an actual date they will just give plenty of excuses as to why they can't.. Feeling really hopeless rn.