Painful Love

I recently got out of a bad relationship . When you fall in love you get blinded. He was so sweet at first and later started showing his true colors. He didnt want me going out and when I would try to go out he would threaten me. I stopped talking to my friends because of him . He was also verbally abusive. He liked yelling at me when he would get mad or cuss me out. I would get so scared . I once mentioned wanting to go to a concert , and je got so mad and said ,"Do you want to test me " . The sex was horrible . At times I was tired and didnt want to have sex . He would not care and just pull down his pants and mine . At times I felt so dead . I would just lay down and stare blankly while he had sex with me. He never did foreplay or saw what were my likes and dislikes. He was never gentle . I didnt like the idea of anal sex but he would pressure me. He would never go gentle and just stick it in without a care. The pain i was going through was so bad. I started changing . I didnt laugh as much or smiled as much. I didnt tell anyone because I felt like I was alone and had no one . I would keep everything in. Until I decided to do it . I decided to leave him . I blew him off and today his sister in law called me to tell me he got in a fight a work. This man I once loved had the worse temper. I saved myself from something really dangerous .