I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years, I love him. I just had a baby 3 months ago and we're already trying for our 2nd. He is definitely my soulmate. He's an amazing father to both our daughter and my son. I can't imagine life without him, but I may have to. :(

When it comes to sex, its mostly about him and I 90% of the time initiate it. I have a problem with him not going down on me and him refusing to kiss me after I've gone down on him. Hes NEVER gone down on me...ever. I thought maybe he was intimidated because, I've been with girls and maybe he thought he wouldn't be good enough? I've asked him about it and he just says he will but hasn't at all. He loved using the excuse "your pregnant, it wil be weird" while I was carrying our child. He said he would after she was born and yet here we are and nothing has happened. I started thinking it had to be me. I take care of myself, I've even tasted myself to see if I taste bad or smell funky, but I don't. I even go and get it waxed all the time! I just dont get it.

Here we are tonight, I got the baby down, took a shower, put on some sexy underwear, and of course I start turn him on. He of course finished, then he turned me over so he could play with me. I asked him to kiss me and he gave me this look of disgust because I had his penis in my mouth. I immediately made him stop touching me. I felt stupid. Like wtf?

If after 2 years, he can't kiss me after I go down on him or him go down on me, then maybe after 2 years, we shouldn't be together. Am I being a drama queen?